Saturday, August 1, 2009

Knitting will get me through

Gull Lake Michigan, view from my Grampa's yard.

68 degrees out, and cloudy. That echoes my emotions. Mom just told me my Grampa's lakehouse sold. It closes in 3 days. I'm so sad about this, as are DD and my brothers.

I guess I was in denial that it would really sell, trying to put on a brave face that faked me out too. I'm so unhappy to lose something so meaningful to our family. I am trying to rally by knowing that it is LOVED by the people that bought it, so likely it won't be torn down and rebuilt as a nouveau mansion like so many of the other cottages along there. There will be children there again, playing in the lake, swimming and running in the sunshine. The love of that property will go on.

And we have a lifetime of memories and photos and videos and love. A reminder that all things are temporary, except God. And I have to tell myself it wouldn't be the same without my grandparents there, anyway. But it is so hard to let go of this.

So I turn to knitting. I am comfort-knitting right now, while the tears stain the wool in my hands. March Lady Sweater will always remind me of this trial. And hopefully it will get me through this.


hetty said...

Reading your post tonight made me shed a couple of tears too. Change is never nice. And to have to give up such a lovely place has got to be difficult. Thank goodness you have your knitting. Tomorrow we are going up to visit my mother who is in a hospital at the moment, waiting for a spot in a nursing home. I don't know why I am telling you this, but I guess it is to say I think I can empathize with you. I am turning to my crocheting. Busy hands, Happy heart - or something like that. You are in my thoughts! All things are temporary. Dust in the wind...... Be kind to yourself!

Carrie K said...

The memories are wonderful but it's still sad. Sometimes change sucks.

Mary Anne said...

I'm late with my comment but I just wanted to say I understand how you and your family feel about this situation. I've been through it myself. The memories and love in your heart is what helps get you through.